again: i never draw furries, unless you are a beloved friend (who is also paying me). fun challenge though!! even though the perspective is all kinds of donked up

err forgot to post this

This is what happens when you pay me to take care of some kids avidly watch The Little Mermaid while their parents be workin’ up a sweat at the gym. Thank God for the provided crayons and construction paper in that daycare room.

sketches i never posted. not necessarily in that order tho… ;;;

fanart of my friend yssa’s take on my character tako for a cameo \o/

fanart of my friend yssa’s take on my character tako for a cameo \o/

cannot handle these old men
also i need to stop drawing on disposable things without taking photos of them because that’s all i’ve been doing ;;;

cannot handle these old men

also i need to stop drawing on disposable things without taking photos of them because that’s all i’ve been doing ;;;

Usual disclaimer: Although this may be common, this doesn’t speak for all extroverts. For the Myers Briggs-y folk: dom-Ne aux-Fi here.
Reasons why this happens:
I don’t want to encroach my feelings upon others.
The above may sound silly but it’s just that I often feel so intensely that I am afraid of coming off as too strong since I am already explosively friendly (let alone how I would even express feelings right off the bat without garbled word vomit).
I am afraid of not being received well or in the way that I would like to be received so I just don’t open up as easily. In spite of being outwardly friendly and faithful of the good in others, I totally lack trust.
Being around people makes me stop focusing on shitty thing and focus on how others are doing instead. I am re-energized back into full on ~genki-girl~ mode (levels of such may vary depending on just how shitty I feel).
Being extroverted is how I cope with things. I get all kinds of emotionally drained when I’m kept to myself for long periods of time.
In the end, as long as my issues aren’t somehow addressed, I’ll still feel kind of shitty by the end of the day and will be kept up in bed at night due to these thoughts and feelings. I still get comments like, “You’re so happy all the time! What’s your secret?” or “Man, where do you get it from? How do you do it?” and it’s just like — aahh, wait, no, I’m having an awful day, I swear… o(-<
Sometimes I think I’m the most bitter happy person around.
But forreal though, this week friggin’ sucked ass and I know this weekend isn’t gonna be any more of a reward. I feel beat, tired, and defeated. When am I going to catch a break?

Usual disclaimer: Although this may be common, this doesn’t speak for all extroverts. For the Myers Briggs-y folk: dom-Ne aux-Fi here.

Reasons why this happens:

  • I don’t want to encroach my feelings upon others.
  • The above may sound silly but it’s just that I often feel so intensely that I am afraid of coming off as too strong since I am already explosively friendly (let alone how I would even express feelings right off the bat without garbled word vomit).
  • I am afraid of not being received well or in the way that I would like to be received so I just don’t open up as easily. In spite of being outwardly friendly and faithful of the good in others, I totally lack trust.
  • Being around people makes me stop focusing on shitty thing and focus on how others are doing instead. I am re-energized back into full on ~genki-girl~ mode (levels of such may vary depending on just how shitty I feel).
  • Being extroverted is how I cope with things. I get all kinds of emotionally drained when I’m kept to myself for long periods of time.

In the end, as long as my issues aren’t somehow addressed, I’ll still feel kind of shitty by the end of the day and will be kept up in bed at night due to these thoughts and feelings. I still get comments like, “You’re so happy all the time! What’s your secret?” or “Man, where do you get it from? How do you do it?” and it’s just like — aahh, wait, no, I’m having an awful day, I swear… o(-<

Sometimes I think I’m the most bitter happy person around.

But forreal though, this week friggin’ sucked ass and I know this weekend isn’t gonna be any more of a reward. I feel beat, tired, and defeated. When am I going to catch a break?

You always talk about how your art isn’t creative enough. It’s not a lack of creativity, it’s that your work is emotionally detached too often… don’t allow yourself to sterilize it.

You’re gonna do fine.

Looking at my New Years doodle drawn a year ago, I was much more confident in the accomplishments I was to pursue for 2013. This year, I’m a lot less retrospective and a lot more tired, conflicted, excited, and confused about what’s to come.

What I can say about 2013, though, is that I did have some growth in art. I’m not sure if I improved technically but I feel like I sort of have more of a grasp on the thing. I’m not sure if that at all comes across in this little summary here.

Here’s to another year of development, uncertainty, and largely playing shit by ear!!